come original; all entertainers come original

fucked up

fucked up boys touch me so good.

who am i too turn them away.

so no one wants me sober, i don’t care.

take what i can get is how i see it.

his hands feel so good. so good.

i can’t say no, man. who would?

insomnia

omg. so insomnia of the worst kind came at me last night and i was up until after 6 in the morning. and then. when i finally get to sleep… the apartment douchebags send someone out to FINALLY fix my patio fence that’s been fucked up since i moved in in august! wtf? does the world hate me? cause 8’oclock sharp and this dude is hammering harshly against my wall and the sound just echoes in my little apartment. i just started screaming are you kidding me into my pillow and the dude was all ‘ma’am, i’m wth the apartment complex we’re fixing your fence for ya’ through my paper thin door. i wish i knew how to shoot a shot gun cause i would have blown him up lol anyways. off to class.

cheatrz

its like an episode of cheaters and you’re that dude with the gun. hide the cameras in the bedroom, girl i know what you’ve done! i might be your baby’s daddy but that don’t mean shiiiit when every dude on the block knows that you’re a trick.

uh, i’m not a rockstar but i still tend to rock hard. you try to play games tease and try to keep me rock hard. try to make me slap you and see me in a cop car. catch me speeding like stock cars expecting me to stop hard. you playing with the mind of the craziest kind. telling me how much you love me when i know that you’re lying. you must be snorting lines if you think that i’m crying. you’re manipulating backstabbing cold and conniving. i went from last to first but this is first to last. i’m the major league playa. you can kiss my ass trick!

so cheaters is filmed in dallas, tx where i hail from, yo. fftl makes me proud to be from a city full of cocky, asswipes with very shallow morality and loyalty. its the only thing on after midnight in an apt with no cable and is always entertaining (: i don’t know what’s more fun.. recognizing were they are in the city or watching people making asses of themselves hahaha

uneasy

nadja went and applied for the same job i did after i got hired and is starting before i am.

i cannot find peace with this. it makes me feel lesser than. and i keep making an ass of myself with the things that come from my mouth. every time she looks at me with that ‘wtf’ look and then rattles off some should have been obvious answer, i feel like such a idiot. i know it’s mostly my period but ugh. i just want to cry and cry and cry. until i can’t anymore. i’ve never felt like more of a failure.

travie

travis mccoy makes me gag. katy perry is fug and her songs are gay. i can’t believe he’s dating her. and what the fuck happen to rad as shit gym class heroes? they’re touring with no-brains lil wayne. what the fuck travis? like really… really? what. the. fuck. end rant.